Dungeness..

Had an absolutely amazing day today.
Got away from it all.. 
And got away from all of you.


The place was so amazing, sure it was in the middle of no-where and there was nothing there, but that didnt matter.. it was so calm and peaceful.. relaxing. Spent the day with literally the most amazing people ever and had just a brilliant day. The best ive had in a L.O.N.G time.. so that was all gravey (y).
My pictures were quite cool.. maybe ill upload some soon.. I cant really describe today but it was just really quite lovely.
Saw Chris ( <3 ) and Charlie tonight ( <3) played pool etc and like it was also good.. won a fiver outta a gambling machine [blackjack] and that was also cool..
Then i come home to this.


Take it easy
Superman..Beesley..Twat

Dear Glitter Fairy And Elf..

Sorry about todayy.. I dunno what went on with me, and i appologise..
Certain ones of these points are to each of you but not each of them to both of you, you have to guess that..


-Im glad you told me
-Cheer up
-Its not the complete end of the world, you can do it.
-Then find the f***ing motivation.. xD
-Dont feel bad that you told me..


there are bare things i could right, but its too long and i have the attention span of a squirrel and the memory of a goldfish.. xD


Just, cheer up the both of youu. 
I love you both
Xx

'School Magazine..'

4 yearrrsssssssssssss.. long.


..Happy now charlie..?


Hmm.. 
Had a good day today with my elf and the glitter fairy again :]] <3
Played pool; trying to teach the glitter fairy anyway.. :P
Town for a bit and had a good old catch-up/bitch with some old school friendssss..


Hmm, kinda in a shit mood atm. But the strange thing is, i dont actually know why =l
Its pissing me off.. =l
I need to do my media coursework, its not gunna write its-self is what my mother always says ..!..
And this photography hw is just staring me in the face.. its so simple, but i have NO motivation what-so-ever.


I dont know what to say really either.. even Eminem isnt cheering me up. 
Fml.
But yeahh..Take it easy..
Superman..Beesley..Twat

Glittery Fairy..

Much love for my glittery fairy first of all.. because of the amaingness etc.. and because she managed to completely cover my house with glitter in about 3 hours, whilst doing absolutly nothing.. *tisktisktisk*

Basicalllyyyyyy.. alrighttt week.. seen people, done stuff.. been good.. been bad..
But BARE proud of myself cause i managed to develop my own film in photography without it completely fucking up.. xD

Quite confused atmmmmm
ermmm... i got pestered into doing this, so this is why its in short bullet points, if you ask later "baby"...
*scrubs tongue with soapy water and a brush of some description..*
DT food coursework has just gone straight past me, and im not sure what im supposed to be doing..
I should really be doing photography stuff atm..
Media essay.. paha, kidding, right? LOL!
Hemi + Charlie + Chris = MAAAAAJOR <3 for youu :]

Eminem is still busting rhymes round Napsbury Park (y) xD
I miss "Cartman" and "slag" :l ... Ima come visit you soon - not like you will read this anyway.. but yeahh..

And i really want to go to Disney still.. but now Sammy isnt going.. and doesnt look like Hemi is either :L
FUCKMYLIFEINDEFINATLYINALLSENSESOFTHEWORD.
Peace out..
Take it easyyou sexy arsed mofo's that read this.. xD... ;]

Superman..Beesley..Twat

..Because I Love The Way You Lie..

<3 for Eminem
<3 for Hemi
<3 for everyone else
<3 for myselfffff.. xD - ok, nah i joke..


Hmm.. 
Today didnt go as bad as i actually expected it to be.. was kinda iffy to begin with, but then it got betterrrrr :]


Media = complete fail and writing anything, in a 3 hour lesson must have written about 10 words.. But listened to BARE eminem so its all gravey.
Did the jungle skank [trying to teach Paige].. and then did a duo with her on "If you were gay" - Avenue Que.. 
T'was quality! 


"COME FAM. Ill fuck you up in front of all you'r friends!!!!" xD


Hmm.. time to sort my life out, once and for all over the next few months i think.. :l


Take it easy.
Superman..Beesley..Twat 

... Wow im a fuck-up

My title pretty much explains alot..
Today i learnt alot..
-About my best friend
-About close friends that i have known for a long while..
-About things that i noticed, but thought was just me being naive..
-About myself.


I learnt a lot today as i have briefly mentioned above, and in all honestly.. 
Theres just so much i want to say to you, but at the same time I am not totally clear about what that is.
Its like i know i want/have to say something, but I dont know what that is..
All the stuff that I have read today.. im not going to lie, it has made me cry.. more so than anything or anyone has been able to do in well.. ages.
I know now that things are gunna be awkward between us because now you have told me/shown me.. i know that you will want to "hide" [if that is the correct way to put it, i am not sure..] But "WE'RE" N.O.T going to allow that m'kay! ...


Whyy did youu not tell me this before. About any of it.
I seem to be really good at not noticing things.. not engaging with things i notice or think i do.. or even taking any kind of action on things. I knew things weren't right, and i tried to help, but not as much as i could have done because i knew i would get pushed away [even more] so i was trying in little bits every day. [Chip]
And whyy on EARTH did you not tell me about "E"... its just like.. arrghhh, i dont even quite know how to put it.. but RAH! 
I just.. hmm. This could be difficult to explain..


Take it easy
Superman..Beesley..Twat
..Definatly a twat.


 

Percentages..

First off... stop stealing my words "baby"... ;]
MAN UP.... mine. LOL..
Anywaysss..
The rents are getting worse, although saying this, they started taking me round in the car more, and not being as aggressive all the time.. hmm.


Basically 'baby' [SCRUBS TONGUE WITH SOAPY WATER!!!] ..
I dont hate you. 
And N . E .V . E . R will..
So basically.. if you want to which it sounds like you do. Then tell me.. of if you feel it necessary, write it..
Honestly, i dont really care how you tell me, I just want to know, so that i know, so that its off youur chest.. and so that I know what it is if it needs being helped [if you know what i mean, you know im not good with words..]
But it reallly sounds like you want to tell me, but are too scared to if that makes sense.. 
But think about everything 'we' have been through and were still standing.. -sigh-
Just know that im here for you. Whenever you need.
I always keep my phone on loud at nights for you beb.


Take it easy. <3
Superman..Beesley..Twat

The Rents..

UNBREAKABLE.. UNSTOPPABLE.. IM INVINSIBLE.. COMMON' BRING IT TO ME BECAUSE IM ALWAYS UNBREAKABLE!

Its weird.. you really dont get to me.. but the fact that i cant do anything about it makes me so angry. More so than I have been with anything else in my whole 17 years of living. 

No Disney

No Friends

No Freedom What-So-Ever

No Fucking Life..

I really want to move away, just to make my life so much more fucking easy.. i have enough to deal with without you on my back constantly about everything when tb completely honest with you its none of youur bussiness.. fair enough if you want to know where i am. But just let me have at least a TINY bit of freedom. ..

 ..!..

Disney was the last straw. so fuck you basically :]

-SIGH-

Never thought i would say it.. but im actually looking forward to school tomorrow..

Need a *tip-toe-hug* :l

Night

Take it easy

Superman..Beesley..Twat

Rip - Stick

Easy..
So today wasn't too bad i suppose.. had photography for 3 hours at college [which i have decided is AMAZING].. and like went round the campus with a film camera taking pictures of random shizzle just for the heck of it.. paha.. then had a go in the "dark bag" - which we wont go into right now.. but it was jokes..

Banter in town wasn't too bad either.. but someone needs to stop being in my face constantly.. ! hmm..

Then to Laura's house.. xD
Steve and Sammy had a go on my rip-stick at like 11 something and swear down it was the only thing that day to make me smile/giggle... it was hysterical.. We drunk Strongbow, played xbox, had random banter with everyone and all had a laugh/good chats.. Major love for Nic Powell, youu crazy son of a b**** aha..

Anyway, being in the living room has made my clothes/hair STINK of smoke - sucks to be me..
So ima have a shower..

Take it easy
Superman..Beesley..Twat

Changes..

Wow.. three in one day.. :l
Everyone seems to be going through changesSo much stress, so much drama, going through the biggestRanges of emotions, is everyone right?Is this really payback, my own personal karma?When its good, its going great, and i feel ontop, Like im on flight.Seriously what is going on in our worldEverything being hurled, swirled and twirledWhere nothing makes sense, everyone's confused But its always meIm always the one who ends up bruisedAre you all amused now? Are you all happy now?Have i finally gotten what i deserved?All I want. Huh, no. All i need to knowIs how i lost a best friendGoing through changesNow that my world has been shaped and curledIn awkward un-natural shapes and patternsSomeone P.L.E.A.S.E tell me what has happenedTo my changing world..


Superman..Beesley..Twat

Randommm..

So erm yeahh.. i found my other blogs, and ill post them on here cause this one i just decided is better... but anyways quickly..

I tried to tell you before I left
But I was screaming under my breath
You are the only thing that makes sense
Just ignore all this present tense
We need to feel breathless with love
And not collapse under its weight
I'm gasping for the air to fill
My lungs with everything I've never got.

Superman..Beesley..Twat

Bad news..

Hmm, i used to have one of these, but i couldnt remember what it was or on what website, so this is my new one.. first post not too good im'a fraid..


This week seems to get getting worse..
-Losing a friend, slowly
-Another one with cancer
-Disney trip is looking like a DEFINITIVE no..
-Photography course s SO hard
- I need to talk to someone, badly :l


Everything seems to be going on, and i really dont like it.


I really dont know what to say to you because no matter how i try, you just dont take any of it all in "and throw it back in my face" [if any of that sounds familiar..] I try, really, i do.. but i just dont get anywhere.
Everything else is just frigging annoying although the last point is just FRUSTRATING in every single sense of the word :l.. Its like i need to talk to you, but cant because of stupid reasons :l And just, rahh. I dont even know what to say.. 


hmm.. Moving on.. Obsession? I think NOT. PAHAHAA, you crazy fool. My only obsession is Eminem.. LOL so erm yeahh.. F888 YOU! If you think im obsessed with you, then you have a SERIOUS problem.. do i talk to/about you/stalk you? Really..? NO! so f888 off :] 


EMINEM IS AMAZING


Take it easy..
Superman..Beesley..Twat