Realisation..

So basically, I have oce and for all realised that my life WILL (see i cant even think of the word that goes here) come to nothing..


I realised that I cant have friends, and do work. Its one or the other. Then when i realise, its too late. Take the past month for instance. friends friends friends friends friends.... *no work*.
No uni, probs no job. Basically I give up.. because my life is becoming what it used to be all those years back in GCSE times.


I have been home for three hours.. managed to eat my dinner/Waterloo road.. now im still sat in the same place on this and FB talking to people and watching Big Mumma's House 2. Procrastinating much.. (aha speaking of that http://www.damnlol.com/) - its quite funny. 
'I promised I would stay focused' aha, thats what I said.. didnt work did it? Nahhhhh.


Anyway, good luck to you uni people etc.. see ya arounddd..


Take care


Superman..Beesley..Twat

Maybe this answers your question..

BECAUSE you snap. Thats why.
You snap at nothing. 
For example; Ellie's party. 
FOr example; whatever I do that doesnt even involove you.. like say im talking to someone, I turn round, say something and you snap. Thats it.


I dont do the hugs anymore because its got worse. 
Ive got worse.


I need space, ok. 
Im sorry, but yeahh.


and thanks for the 'you might as well walk with us' (yesterday).. i crossed the road before you. and then I waited for you guys to come round the corner for 15 mins. so thanks.

If your reading this because you discovered it..

I hate you. 
And i told you to log me out.
Not f***ing spy on me like you always do. 
F.U

Easyy..

Havnt blogged i a while.


Shit happens. (:


Yesterday was such a cotch day. Ended up re-joining the 'orchard group'.. went to the orchard for a pic-nic! :D
Finally brought the shorts and the aviators out.. turned out to be such an awesome day with some pretty awesome friends (:
Spent the evening with L, I, K, and D.. was so jokes!!


Also spent most of the day with S.A and it was pretty awesome :D 
.. you got soooo giggely man!! :P was pretty jokes, we should do that more often =3


School is still as horrible as ever, finally started doig my DT work and I am really quite proud of the work I did for it.. and its finally clicked that If i get this done and out of the way I can focus on my media and photography like I really want. I figured out I did really shit in my photography and NEED to do some more work on it and start this Unit to keep up with it. Then I need to do some editing on my media finals, then I could possibly get it to a B or HOPEFULLY an A.. because it is the subject I am really passionate about, but I dont know why, and I dont know why I wasnt trying hard before.. but I am going to now. 
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C treated me to the cinema the other day and it was really quite funny, it was like old times :')
And spend the entire day with C which was really nice, because that was kinda like old times too.. I miss that.


Anyway I gotta go meet S now.. so take care people


Take it easy
Beesley