Understanding.

Well I wonder if you know, how it really feels.. to be left outside alone. 
When its cold out here. 
Well maybe.. you SHOULD know how it feels to be left outside alone.


Because im going to be honest now. 
I really do not think ANY of you know how it feels.
You say this is how you are treated, but you more than probably dont.
You say things you feel. But are they real?
I dont know. And neither do you, but you like to say it etc..
Then after all of the 'venting' you apologise. Its the same every time. 
And right now, i dont care anymore. 
... Its like, (i know this sounds harsh, but nothing gets through to you unless I 'blurt it to your face')
..Anyway, its like.. your just doing it for attention. 
And I really just want to put you into 'Saw' a lot of the time..
To see how much you really do 'appreciate your life' if that makes sense.. because I know you talk about it.. infact you all do. But (and i am not trying you) i dont think you would do it. 
Its all too much.
The past 2 weeks have been so pieceful, relaxing and I am actually enjoying my life again because I am away from all of you and the pain, stress and anger this is all causing. I want it to always be this way. 
..I wonder if you know how it feels..
..how it feels.


..to be left outside alone... to be left outside alone.


Superman..Beesley..Twat


p.s I am sorry. Really, but I have juust had enough of it.