A Changed E***

Well its nice to know that BOTH of you said this. 
Especially as one of you, who has known me the longest KNOWS i havnt changed, 
Yet the other one I guess ill accept that statement more because you havnt known me long enough
to know..
But my best friend.. great, thinks I have changed. you KNOW I havnt.


You know this is one of the manny ways I deal with stress, drama, (and i may be exaggerating quite a bit but) life  changing things. Because this is what happened with Queen B. B changed me. You know this.
So tbh, not gunna lie.. I am actually quite offended.
What I tend to do (i dont even know why im even bothering explaining) is back off from the world, ignore the ones I care about the most to i dont hurt them by what i may end up saying to them and lye low, see some old friends because they cheer me up a considerable amount and then when I am 'stable' i try and fix things.
But instead you all decide to let it hurt you because im trying not to. And i bet none of you understand this. But I dont even care. I tried to not talk to you to help YOU.. but somehow in this mess we have all made it worse. 


But its nice to know that my 'best friend' said this too.


I want to get along with you all. Really, I do. But your making it really difficult to do.
So when.. or if you decide we can all start again then please just let me know. Im tired of playing these ridiculous games.


Superman..Beesley..Twat